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Testing 1...2...3...

As I sat in the cold, sterile room at Children’s Hospital in Dallas, I watched my daughter being prepped for her EEG test.  A few months before, I received the news that my seemingly perfect, healthy child actually had an incurable disease.  Not only was the disease something I couldn’t even pronounce, but it also caused tumors in her brain that would eventually lead to seizures.  The day had come for her to face one of many uncomfortable, painful tests.

I was told to stand on the other side of the room and instructed not to interfere during the test.  The technician began to rub aggressively all over her head and put the electrodes in place.   I know that I would be agitated at this process as an adult, not to mention as a one-year old baby.  She began crying and kicking so uncontrollably that the nurses strapped her to a papoose board so she couldn’t move.  At that moment, my tears began to flow and my “mama bear” instincts kicked in.  I wanted to push those people away from my daughter.

She reached out and the next words I heard were “Help me. Help me.”  As I looked into her eyes, I saw pain and helplessness.  Everything within me wanted to rescue her and never let her go, but I knew in my heart that she needed to go through the test.  The test was necessary to find out exactly what was wrong and how to treat it.   It was then that the Lord spoke to me and showed me a revelation.

He showed me His heart as a Heavenly Father who watches His children go through difficult tests.  We cry out in desperation and we ask God to deliver us from the trial.  However, our Sovereign God knows what is best for us and allows the test to mold and shape us into stronger followers of Christ.

James 1: 2-4 says “Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.

Just as the fire refines the gold, the tests and trials of life refine us as believers.  Knowing that God sees you and hasn’t forsaken you in the valley times is one of the greatest lessons to learn.  Our worship is authentic and deep when it’s offered in times of struggle and testing because we are stripped of every selfish motive.  If we can press through our circumstances and worship in spirit and in truth, God receives the glory.  We will draw closer to God as a Father who we can trust to work all things together for our good.

Are you in the middle of a test or trial?  God sees you, upholds you, and will not forsake you.  Let your praise rise out of the valley experiences and all who hear it will be blessed.


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